I saw my cousin Danny in July, a couple days before I took my third California bar exam, and he told me about a test he struggled to pass years ago…

He told me, “I had to get out of my own head and remember I’m everything I believe I am.”

He spoke of the fake-stress of that season of his life, and looking into his eyes it was clear that in order to understand the weight of his advice I had to try and see even a piece of the depth of his journey…

From a wheelchair and tired soul, he was teaching me about fighting in the midst of the hardest fight of his life… One that was stealing his body and precious breaths from him.

Just remember, you are everything you believe you are…” is what he said.

 And he told me he was BLESSED…

That he couldn’t ask for anything more from his life…

That through it all, God was SO GOOD to him…

As I reflect on what this year has meant to me, may those words be tattooed on my heart for the rest of my life and those moments of God-sent faith on display be forever saved on the DVR of my soul…

On the eve of my third-round of bar results being released, this year-long journey has come full circle…

I’ve learned that there will always be a test in front of me…

That God develops us as fighters because as life goes on our battles get greater…

How the fight of my year is SO SMALL in the grand scheme of His plan for me…

And I pray that I learn to fight every one of my battles with the same surrendered trust and gratitude to God as my cousin Danny did…

A true victor.

And already so greatly missed.

 

 

My soul, wait silently for God alone,

For my expectation is from Him…

Psalm 62:5

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